Dress: Shop Pink Blush sleeves rolled up.
Cardigan: Shop Pink Blush JUST SOLD OUT DM Shop Pink Blush on Instagram to get on wait list. Also love this and this from them!
Diaper Bag: Fawn Design
Boys: Rags to Raches here and here , Freshly Picked
What is it with pregnancy that makes your body want ice cream and pickles? Seriously I have wanted them with each pregnancy. I once left my bag of pickles on the counter when I left for work one day and I literally wanted to cry! My sister, Janelle, even shared in my pain once I got home from work as she saved them and put them in the fridge for me and said "you forgot your pickles today I was sad for you" haha! I haven't been as much into pickles this time around although, I still love them! What I have really been loving is ice cream! In fact as I am typing this now I have to keep stopping to stuff my face with my coffee ice cream!
We literally stop and get ice cream all the time, and when we aren't stopping I just have to rest assured that my fridge is stocked at home. And then the snowie shacks opened and all my dream came even more true! Because I was literally craving one all winter long....Swedish berries with cream is where it's at! I am 100% sure Boone and Cooper are just loving my sweet tooth indulgences because they always get to join in on devouring a treat of their own, but man have they been extra wild lately! I was honestly just thinking to myself today how I am going to handle three wild boys! I just don't know yet... I'm definitely feeling the fear now with only four weeks left.. but kids smell fear right? So I better just get a handle on that emotion stat!
It's a good thing I have found some cute maternity clothes from Shop Pink Blush because a growing belly mixed with a sweet tooth makes for one growing machine in my belly! I seriously have the tight uncomfortable feeling all the time! My belly seriously feels like a ROCK! If only it was in 6 pack form, jk! I would take a baby pack over a 6 pack any day! But Shop Pink Blush helps me feel comfortable and cute even at 36 weeks, which is one tough feat to beat because its hard to feel cute in maternity clothes , but not theirs! So until baby boy gets here you can find me eating all the sweets and lounging in this dress or cardigan, and if this guy doesn't come out to be one of the sweetest babies ever I will be surely surprised!
Dress: Shop Pink Blush sleeves rolled up.
Cardigan: Shop Pink Blush JUST SOLD OUT DM Shop Pink Blush on Instagram to get on wait list. Also love this and this from them!
Diaper Bag: Fawn Design
Boys: Rags to Raches here and here , Freshly Picked
If you're anything like me grocery shopping is something that you always push towards the end of your to-do list just because you dread it. Now, it honestly wouldn't be that bad but with two kids in tow it gets rough, especially now. I finally thought I had it down to a tee after almost a year and half; I would walk in with a game plan, make sure to stop for a snack first to help the kids stay busy and made sure I packed each of their favorite toys to pull out just when I see things going south. Then I got pregnant and I swear the hooligans could smell my tiredness and fear, because now nothing seems to work and then the madness begins and so does my dislike for grocery shopping.
I figured I am already becoming a full blown mom now, I mean, I am now complete with a mini van and everything, because those automatic doors, extra storage and the roomy car seat room is so convenient. So, I decided what the heck why not shouldn't I try out things that make a moms life more convenient so you are able to spend quality time with your children. That's where SAM's Club Pick Up came in handy. All I had to do was download and app found here, fill out my SAM's Club membership, choose my items, check out, choose a pickup time and TaDa someone else did the work more me! It's like magic! All I had to do was show up and pick up my items. It was so convenient and saved us so much more time; Time that we were able to spend together with not having to work around naps, trying to keep children to stay in the carts for long periods of time, no tantrums because they couldn't get the toy they wanted, and no having to take mommy time outs in the car once you finally got done and everything unloaded, because most of the stress has been done for you! Not only did we get to go on a picnic with the time we saved, but we were even able to stop at a new ice cream shop we have all been dying to try! And it all thanks to one simple step I took to help my life become less stressful. I highly recommend trying out the SAM's Club Pick Up! You can get $10 off your membership through this link.
This Post was Sponsored by SAM's Club.
If you know me you know that I LOVE all things animals; They really just make me so happy! They really always have from coming home with wild kittens, bringing home dogs, nursing baby calves back to health, winning and catching rooters and pigs in literal wild animal chases, having cages of lizards, frogs, rats-yes, hamsters, even rats you know the ones with the red eyes...yup I had them and yes I LOVED them all, still do! So when Michelle from The Mumsyblog asked me to join her and Roxana B Photography at the baby animal days at This Is the Place Heritage Park my answer was of course YES!
I packed up my Coco and Kiwi bag with all our snacks, dinos, and camera...you know the necessities..who needs diapers and wipe's haha ;) for our trip to see the animals! Once we arrived Cooper immediately saw a teepee and giant grass areas for his little heart and legs to run and couldn't contain his excitement. I told him there would be animals and he wanted to get to them as soon as he could. Seeing all the baby animals made my mama heart so happy! And then seeing my boys with the baby animals I was just exploding; I have decided that Boone needs chickens stat! He was so sweet with them and just couldn't get enough of them. Cooper, my reptile lover, of course was googly-eyed over the turtle. And me well I just wanted to load up those baby goats; so if seems that if were to have a farm we would need a little bit of everything to complete everyone's dreams...someday!
It may take a while for my little dream farm to come true, but I could possibly help one of your dreams come true because Michelle and I teamed up for an awesome giveaway with some of the shops who helped our little farm visit that much more splendid. We are giving away one family pass to This Is the Place Heritage Park. A $50 credit to Gigi Pip because my outfits aren't ever complete without a hat...just don't wear your straw hat next to the goats they will literally want to eat it right from your head! Ellsworth and Co, who just happens to be one my most favorite people in all the land, is giving away one of her necklaces; if you know me you know I ALWAYS have at least one on. And of course a day out with children just wouldn't be complete without having a way to pack up all the snacks and extras, so Coco and Kiwi is giving you a BAG!! Their bags are seriously unreal....I don't even want to admit how many of their bags I have because it's a little embarrassing how obsessed I have with them, but I guess if you follow me on Instagram you already know that! You can enter to win all of this greatness by following this link! I really hope to make your dreams come true! Love you all and happy \
*Also a big thanks to Shabby Apple for providing us with the cutest dresses so we could stay stylish, and Roxana B photography for the amazing photos!
*Questions about Coopers Jacket- NEVE and HAWK
I knew I already had the whole mom brain thing, and I finally thought I was getting it under wraps when BAM, YaY! Pregnant! And then the mom brain gets a little or a whole lot of dose of pregnancy brain. You know those moments you don't really have any control over because well your brain just isn't cooperating. Trying to get that ever so wanted bagel out of the toaster with a metal fork, because that's super safe. Leaving your car running for a large periods of time more than once because you thought you turned it off but you really never did, you know just doing my part to keep this environment healthy and clean?? Trying to squeeze your four year old into your two year olds pants and not realizing why it was so hard until they are on and he stands up and you see that they are 5 times too small. Rambling because you can't seem to find your way to the end of your sentence let along even knowing how it began. Yeah those moments. Maybe someday it will be cured, you know if I get back all those years of sleep I supposedly lost after two newborns, but I'm just not banking on it because well I'm pregnant and that phase is going to start all over again.
Even though these moments can be quite embarrassing for those not cursed by pregnancy brain for some reason they hardly even phase me. I would normally want to crawl into a whole so I guess the numbness or don't give a damn attitude while pregnant pays off. It isn't always this way I think this is a moment you earn after being so emotionally during those first months. Luckily we can laugh about them now, which is why I have not only stories from me today but from you too!
MINE: My first case of pregnancy brain happened early on in my pregnancy so instead of not giving a damn phase I was in the emotional stage, and on top of that no one knew I was pregnant at the time which made it even harder! My sisters and I had a HUGE trip planned to Joshua Tree National Park, which someday I will blog about but and share all the amazing photos but it still makes me nauseous just thinking about it-not because it was bad-but because I just wanted to throw up the entire 8 hour drive there and the 8 hour drive back. Anyway....We had this amazing trip planned just us girls. I was in charge of most everything since I planned it. I booked the room, I drove, I told everyone when we were leaving....or so I thought. I went and picked everyone up and we were having a jolly old time when someone mentioned something about my oldest sister, instantly my heart sank, and I wanted to cry, barf on top of already wanting to barf, crawl into a hole...because guess what I freaking FORGOT to even tell her about the trip entirely! How does that even happen?! We had just had Sunday dinner a week before and I was planning on telling her then, and for some reason I think my brain just connected the thought with reality...but nope! The reality was we were already 4/5 hours away from home and she was not in the car with us because I didn't even invite her! That was my first real case of pregnancy brain, one that I will probably always feel so terrible about.
The 1st story comes from an Insta friend who is going to remain anonymous because she hasn't announced her pregnancy yet: I was driving home from my Moms Meetup group at church with my two year old daughter and was almost to the driveway when I realized... we moved six months ago, and now live in a completely different house. Old habits die hard, I guess?
MINE: I was leaving work one day and walked out to my usual parking spot when I realized my car was GONE! Literally GONE! I started wandering the parking lot in daze trying to figure out where it could be, literally for like 15 minutes in a freaking cold tundra land. I had one of my co-workers see me just walking around the cold winter parking lot aimlessly looking; I think the look on my face gave it away, she stops me "Makelle are you okay? " me: "I lost my car" and of course I immediately thought it was stolen, and I just wanted to call the cops and then that thought overwhelmed me because I didn't know my license plate number, is my car a 2010 or a 2012? So many questions of questions that I was worried would be asked if I had to call the cops flooded in. My co-worker calms me down. "Do you think you could have parked somewhere else? I think I saw you park it in front today"...ding ding ding! It all came rushing back in, she was right I did park out front because I left my keys to the building at home so I couldn't get in that morning. I think the thing that tops the whole story off is that I actually texted my sister 'Sorry I am running late today. I lost my car'- UM yeah just don't send that.
A new client texted me a couple weeks ago, someone I've never met before, asking me questions about my product photography. Sometimes it's just better to talk about things over the phone rather than a text message so I proceeded to text out my telephone number, told her to give me a call so we can discuss details over the phone.I realize what I did after a while and told her sorry I was pregnant and I was resting and wasn't even thinking. Great first impression.
Then yesterday I was texting my friends if they had hiking "bag pack" you know like a baby carrier but for hiking, that we could barrow. I was calling it a "bag pack" all day long. Like I text numerous people. I realize what I had done much later and was like wait Have i been calling it bag pack all my life or is it just my brain fog??????
MINE: I decided to actually leave the school on my lunch break because I was having a panic attack and I NEEDED some Doritos and a Pepsi (sidenote: They worked ;)) Well it was a blizzard that day. Cars were sliding off the roads, and some not even moving on flat ground. But I wasn't letting the storm stop me because a pregnant women gets what she wants right ;) When I returned back I noticed a man stuck in the parking lot. His car couldn't even get out of its parking stall. I went over to him and asked if he wanted me to push his car while he drove...um 1st off your pregnant, 2ndly I have not upper body strength or any strength for that matter. I think he realized that after taking one look at me. He said how about you backup and ill push...sounded like a fair trade. I got in his car and was ready to go when he gave me the okay. I started pushing the gas, the engine was revving like crazy, the man was pushing with all his might his feet were sliding from under him. We did this three more times of him pushing and me revving the gas. Finally he came to the window and asked "It is in reverse?" I looked down noticed "oh it's in park" hahaha. I put it in reserve and the man became unstuck with one gentle push and some gas. At least I 'helped" right?
@haymason: Not to long ago I went to get gas I had some of my husbands family in the car. I realized I only had cash on me (first mom brain moment no card) so I had to go in I looked behind me multiple times to see what number I was on. (#3) I even repeated to my self. I got to the counter and said my money and then said on 5 went to my car got ready to pump gas and realized it wouldn't work. I then realized I had said pump 5 so now Im having to race over.
Chelsee Wozniak Totally put dish soap in the dishwasher instead of detergent. Bubbles everywhere. I blamed it on being pregnant ;) I have a picture somewhere.
Casey Tobler I was carrying a handful of things, two of which were the keys and the baby's pacifier. Set the keys down and tried to start the car with the binky.
Being pregnant really takes a toll on our whole body, even clear into our brain. Our emotions run wild- I mean for hells sake who cries, well actually more like sobs, when they step on a snail...this girl! Our bodies are changed, and our brain doesn't quite seem to work like it used to. But you know one thing that seems to grow when all else seems to be failing is our heart! And what an amazing thing to have grow bigger, deeper, stronger.
Dress: NEST BOUTIQUE
Shoes: Sandragenes Clogs
Diaper Bag: Coco and Kiwi
Boys Shirts: The Bee and the Fox
I am a big believer that the best kind of learning comes when children are involved, and learning by doing; through their experiences. I also think that despite the old saying "curiosity killed the cat" that curiosity can be the best 'teaching instructor.' I often times like to sit back and let my boys try and figure things out for themselves, of course while keeping a close eye on them--I definitely won't allow them to do anything that could cause them any harm. They will sit and I can see as the questions form on their face. Often times I don't have answers to Coopers questions which in return makes me want to learn more so that I can give him a true honest answer. In all my of schooling to become an actual teacher one thing that was heavily drilled into our brains was that "children learn best when it is their idea," they don't even feel as though as if it is learning. Now I know it may be hard for it to always be their idea, but you can always spice it up so that it's in the best interest of the child. Choose books that make the child wonder, make homework fun by talking, and goofing; that's what we have to do with Cooper. But over the years as I have watched my own children grow the best place for 'my' children to learn and be their best selves is when they are outside-they are just happier there. I don't want to be the one who denies them that happiness so I just join in. I used to not be as much of an as I am now. Don't get me wrong I loved being outside as a child, and still have a love for it but now it's what I actually crave. Just ask my husband- whenever he asks what I want to do it's 99% of the time outside usually he responds with can't we have a normal date, or go on a normal vacation? Whats 'normal' anyway?
Having children, and boys for that matter has helped open windows for me! Your children really do teach you more about yourself than you ever could imagine. They make sure you slow down, take the time to truly "smell the roses" or pick up this stick and that rock for their collection. They make me really think about the "How's and why's" of the way this world work, as I begin forming my own questions and hypothesis about this world we live in and along with them I begin to crave more of that learning drive.They honestly teach you how to 'explore' the everyday world around you; the places you have been a million times that are right outside your door, but by allowing them to take the lead it allows for a whole to world of exploration to be opened up into an adult world which is usually too busy to see the magic in it all. It may take us twice as long to get anywhere but we are actually taking the time to enjoy these little things, the things that I usually step over or pass by, but now I find myself looking for cool sticks, rocks, flowers and have now come to re-admire these simple things as an adult. Even running through puddles among the snowy ground was something I would have never done if it weren't for my little ones making me slow down to and take the time to just run. To be in that moment, and just be.
Our shirts/Romper The White Oak Shoppe
So traveling with kids is never ever easy! Especially my boys. Cooper has made immense improvement on patience while traveling, compared to his little baby/ toddler self who used to scream and cry anytime he was in the car, and I mean just scream! We were once headed to Montana and almost had my father-in-law come pick him up in Tremonton which is really only about 2 hours away, and that didn't make a dent in the road trip we had planned. Anyway he really has improved or maybe it's the fact that we now have a van, and vans are pretty much a child's traveling heaven! Well except for Boone. Boone is two. Two year old are extremely self-centered. Period. So when we travel we try and make sure to take pit stops before the meltdowns begin! It just helps everyone's sanity.
We usually make the same little stops every time. I am one who is all about "tradition" and when it's a "Throckmorton Tradition" it can't ever be passed up. We always stop by our favorite Cheese Factory for ice cream, or some sort of treat! It's just how we roll, literally here we come rolling in, and usually we have a whole caravan of people. But this time, this time was just us. It was the perfect little stop to take. We were a little sad to see snow on the ground after coming from such warm weather, but luckily it was still warm enough to eat our very first ice cream of 2017 outside! Hallelujah! Our favorites flavors have changed over the years and at the particular time of our lives we are in...well everyone except for Jared who still prefer Chocolate Toffee Crunch. Cooper has been loving anything strawberry. Currently during this pregnancy I love Coffee but got a delicious pistachio sine Coffee wasn't and option. Boone had a mix of everyone's leftovers once he finally woke up. We just can't wait for more ice cream outings with my little crew.
I have had SO many questions on this skirt. I have decided to link for you! Make sure to get on the waiting list because I promise you won't regret it! It's one of my favorite things I own at the moment, and thankfully it can be worn with my belly even though it's not maternity.
Skirt: Forever 21. Color may be sold out, there was a waiting list last I checked. I also love This one and this one
I know it has been long awaited but we have finally decided to announce the gender of our sweet little babe. It took longer than what we wanted! I had to cancel my first ultrasound appointment because my husband got called into work. I was so sad, especially when they told me we couldn't get back in for two more weeks, although I am sure glad we waited (now) because I don't think we would have gotten our "rockin" little ultrasound. Then we waited another good week before we even told our family because of my husbands work schedule; I didn't want to tell each others families without both us being present! I'm just too sentimental that way.
I had the ever so amazing Natalie Park Photography do our video to reveal to our family on a very last minute whim due to some change of plans. Not only was she so amazing to work with but she also did everything just we asked and then some! I was in awe when she sent the video, AND then sent the most gorgeous photos that I was not even expecting. I cannot wait to work with her again because she is just as sweet as they come! We actually have another gender reveal project we worked on that I cannot wait to show you. I would say I hope you enjoy that video, but I'm just going to say that I know you will because she is just that talented!
Since this is most likely our last baby (well not if I have any say in it) I'm not skipping out on any steps and that means even having a gender reveal for our family. Last time we just texted our family 'boy!" and even though it is still a great memory I am really happy we got to capture our families expressions this time around. My hope was to not know the babies gender until the big reveal but that just wasn't happening. By the time your third baby comes around you really know what your looking at during the ultrasounds and there was no hiding what our baby was showing off. When our ultrasound tech asked if we wanted to know the gender both mine and my husbands responses were 'I think we already know" because well we had already caught a peek. She said "well lets see if your right" as she moved the machine around on my belly. Sure enough we were right as he was flashing us all that he had. I started crying for the first time ever during an ultrasound-the happiest of tears. I honestly could not believe what I hearing. What I was seeing. What I was feeling. It was first time ever in my life that I have felt the sensation of peace flow over me. It was one of the most spiritual experiences I have ever been apart of.
Jared thinks we got blessed with another boy because I had told him if we didn't get another boy then we would have to try again. He says " I think god knows we (I) couldn't handle four kids so he gave you your boy;" And you know maybe that's true. And maybe that is why I had such a feeling of peace come over me when I found out it was a boy. I would have been so happy with a girl don't get me wrong, but for me I just feel like boys are what I need. Plus all my meditation and thoughts of "I'm making this baby grow a Weiner" would have gone to waste haha... totally kidding...well kind of. But we really are excited to be adding another little 'lost boy' to our clan!
What we wore
Me: Dress Forever 21 sold out but here is the item number (2000213707) call your local Forever 21 and see if they have it, that's what I did! I also love these:
Coop: Jeans Zara,
Shoes Zara soldout similar here .
Boone: Jeans Zara ,
Shirt Zara, Vest Amazon,
Socks Me in Mind,
Shoes Starry Knight Design
Jared: Jeans Abercrombie, Shirt Cotton On, Zip Sweater GAP, Shoes Vans
Leather mat: Gathre
Knit Blanket: Target
Live in the sunshine. Swim the sea. Drink the wild air. -Emerson
Today I am writing as a guest writer for the amazing Opeeqo-a website that offers ideas for modern parenting. I couldn't be happier about this post because I am writing all about something I have a true love and belief in-raising my children among the wild things (outdoors) and why it is important to me. I honestly don't know if we are ever as happy as when we are outside. My boys adore being among anything wild and I love watching them grow in this world by allowing them explore all it has to offer. It's really quite strange because I have always felt that being outside is where my boys do their best learning. Because of this I try to offer them as many opportunities as possible to get out there. What I didn't realize was happening was that they were actually teaching me. My love for the outdoors was growing at a rate I would never expect. You know our children really do teach us more about ourselves than we could ever realize. For me growing up I loved being outdoors, then as I entered my adolescence years my love for it started to dwindle as I found new interests. Before I knew it I was married and going to school and I just loved going shopping at the mall. Then my babies were born and they have helped me rekindle my love for the outdoors. Not only am I continually blown away by its beauty, but I am always so thankful for all the opportunities it gives my boys to learn, run wild and be free-we truly make out best memories among the "wild air."
It is so important for me to raise my children in the outdoors because I think that this is where they are going to gain the best experiences in their life. We often visit the same places: our favorite swimming hole or fishing pond, digging in the giant sand pit, hiking to our local waterfall or going sledding down the same hill a million times; Yet each time these experiences and visits to these same places are completely different. Not to mention the amazing memories that have come from it.
We were able to visit my mother-in-laws vacation rental and finally feel the sun on our skin after being bundled up from winter; it was exactly what we needed. We have been to this same location before, but each time we visit my boys are a little older, a little smarter, and a little more daring. Cooper was actually courageous enough to jump in the pool for the first time and Boone was finally brave enough to enter the water without having to cling onto someone. It may not be a huge improvement but even watching them grow in the simplest ways is always so rewarding as a parent. We drove miles to see giant colorful stacked rocks, because I want my boys to admire the beauty in this world-both manmade, naturally made, and the amazingness that can happen when the two are combined. We hiked red rock, ran through the sand, but most of all we enjoyed each others company. Just us four, just our memories with no interruptions.
There's a saying that says "collect moments not things" and that is exactly what spending our time outdoors allows us to do.
You know some of the best days are those that are uninterrupted by being 'unplugged' all day- Text messages that can wait, phone calls that can go to voicemail, Facebook and Instagram notifications that will still be there when you are finished. And for me the outdoor world is really a whole new world because I completely forget about the worldly things of being 'plugged in' and 100% focus on my boys. I sit. I listen. I watch- I watch their every move-the way the sun reflects in their eyes, how those curly locks get curler by the second from sweaty little heads, the way they pick at bushes, brush the sand from their pants, scourer the ground for the perfect rock, and stomp in the sand trying to figure out why their isn't a sound being reciprocated back to them. I am learning more about them as an individual from these small things and for me it's all about those experiences that make me fall completely in love with the outdoors and why it is so important to me. I truly am a better more aware parent out there living in the sunshine, rain, and snow among the mountains, sand, flowers and trees with my little lost boys.
We had the first day with almost no snow so I loaded up the boys and we set out for a picnic. Cooper choose one of our favorite locations which is a little local pond near our house. It was so fun to see the boys run and play on such a warm day-well warmer than what we have been used to. Cooper was so excited to "fish" with his stick. He started telling 'Big Fish' stories about how he spotted a puffer fish and how he was going to catch it. He would get so excited and shout to Boone and me to come see the puffer fish. We of course would play into his game and would pretend we could see the puffer fish. Boone was so excited by the ducks who joined us for our picnic, and kept feeding them our food to make sure they didn't wander off too far. They even liked the Pure Growth Organic White Cheddar Popcorn, which I quickly snagged away because they taste too good to be shared with the ducks, really it might just be my new favorite snack.
As the boys played in the water it made me that much more excited for spring and for all of our adventures we are going to have this summer. I also realized I definitely need to add more Pure Growth Organic Snacks in my cupboard because not only are they healthy but they are are so easy to grab and go which is perfect for our on the go lifestyle. I am embarrassingly admitting that I am usually the mom who will quickly stop at a fast food chain or gas station and grab treats to tide them over until we reach our destination. So it would really be nice to have these products on hand so I can offer my boys healthier option snacks. I am doing an IG takeover for Pure Growth Organic today if you want I would love for you to follow me along on their IG account.
I hope you have the happiest Sunday!
Well it's officially official now, right? Because I posted it to social media, that's the rule nowadays I hear.
Even though it may be social media, family, friends and doctor official I still cannot believe that baby number three is on its way. It still does not feel real. Its really quite a surreal feeling. Is this happening again, am I ready for another new born? I am only 4 week away from being half way so I better be ready.
At each doctor appointments I ache to hear that heartbeat and when it takes them a minute to find it my heart sinks...everytime. Maybe its from past experiences, both my own and family that make my stomach instanly fall into a pit of anxiety that only comes out as soon as those fast pitter patters are echoing through the room. Even with that fear, and anxiety I feel I still don't know if that "connection" has developed yet....although in a strange way I know it's just deeper, something beyond my understanding otherwise I wouldn't feel those few seconds of grief during those moments of the heartbeat hunt. I know as soon as see the next ultrasound and I feel those feets little jabs to my ribs, pelvic bone and the oh so dreaded bladder...and let me tell ya it's really dreaded now with baby number three; that deeper connection of 'I know you but I don't really know you' the one I don't quite understand yet will instantly arise from the fear, doubt and my wonder "will everyhing be okay?" will start to slowly fade and human connection can begin to develop.
I am currently 16 weeks! And WOW that seems so crazy to say. I can honestly say I sadly haven't documented a single thing. My goal is to get a 16 week picture before Sunday, when I turn 17 weeks. I was had high hopes of documenting every little detail since this most likely be my very last baby. The things that have stuck out to me most don't come from me but from my Cooper Wayne. Cooper is so excited for this baby which makes even more excited. He is in love with everything baby right now. He has was even helping me over Christmas break sorting out clothes to donate/sell and whenever a little tiny outfit would fall in his lap he would go "awwweee mama" and hold it up and smile. He's really been loving on my belly. WhenI didn't even have a belly or lets be honest its 'bloat' right now, haha, he would come and rub it and ask "You got a baby in there?" Now that I am more bellied (bloated) there hasn't been a day where he hasn't asked to see my belly. Each day he startst to giggle and say "Mama your belly getting big" then giggle with some added belly loves. He's been really intrigued with my butt too haha really. He really thinks I am going to poop the baby out and doesn't quite understand how its going to fit....oh if only he really knew the terror haha, jk it really is a beautiful thing. At first he thought the baby was going to be a girl and wanted to name her Penelope, which i actually would have contemplated because I think Penny would be a cute nickname; but now it's a boy and hes going to name it Trek...thanks 'Dino Dan.'
Most of my family thinks this baby is going to be a girl, there are only a handful who think it will be a boy. I want a healthy baby. Period. But if I knew health wasn't a worry I would probably say I want another boy..eek! I feel a little awful for saying that probably becasue I have already been calling him/her 'baby girl'. It just feels different this time around. I don't want anyone to think I don't want a girl, I do. I really do just come see my closet of baby girl clothes that I have collected over the years. It is just very unknown territory for me to raise a girl. If anything I wouldn't be sad or disappointed if I had a girl I would just simply be scared. There's nothing like conquering our fears right?